Black as the Devil Painteth

i woke up at 4.30 this morning even though i went to sleep at about 1.30. lay in bed and couldn't stop thinking about the one thing i shouldn't be thinking about. and i came to the affirmation that i don't necassarily believe in God anymore. so i'm wearing all black again today...as i did yesterday and the days before that. red skull on the back of my black shirt and red shoes to match. and well...the blackest mood i can muster which (the mustering) isn't hard cause thats how i feel anyway. one good thing arises from the ashes of all this....lyrics and music.
thank god (hahahahahaha....sarcastic frown) for music. it saves me and yet i hate it. well to be fair i hate everything else too. and everybody. juvenile isn't it. you'd think i should be shacked up with a wife in a house with 2 children and on my way to a divorce cause marraiges don't work anymore. ah love...what a many splendoured and hideous thing that it can make people deliriously happy and suicidally low. thank god (again ha) i don't have a heart cause if i did i'd probably tear it from my breast right here and now. but i know this pain i feel is probably just gas.

Fuck Off I Hate You!..This means you!